I called my other (the older of the two younger) brother out for dinner together yesterday. Its been about 15 years since we went out with each other alone so I felt a deep sense of accomplishment having done that (Good job, Minna ). Many things have changed since the last time we went out. In those days, he was shorter than I was; we used to go on dutch or he'd borrow money from me; we usually end up bickering over something.... but yesterday he was a LOT taller than me (a friend that we ran into even thought that I was the younger sibling); we didn't go on dutch, I just treated him; and we didn't bicker.. not anymore ! (Bro had 7 slices of pizza. Minna had 2 slices. 1 slice left sitting on the pan.) Bro: Can you take the last slice? Minna: (Thought twice) ... ok... (Sawed off the tip of the pizza and chewed then past the remaining piece on bro's plate..) Minna: Nah... you finish it. I'm full. Bro: Huh?! You ate so little! Burp.. I'm full too... Minna: Okiez.. half! (Minna cuts pizza slice into half and took one half of it.. ) Had it been 15 years ago... the scene would have been us fighting for more pizza slices each.  And one more thing was different from back then - he is going to get married already! Yea, so our converation was *ah hem* about more grown-up stuff such as his future plans, considerations of a career... no more kiddo talk. I called my kindergarten teacher cum our ex-tutor after our dinner. I wanted to ask her out for coffee because we were very near where she is staying. Bro was surprised and added that he wana invite her to his wedding. Anywayz, the first time I tried calling her mobile, the call failed. 15mins later I tried calling her mobile again. This time there was a ringtone and she answered. What she told me next was shocking. Miss Tay: Hi! I have been wanting to catch up with you too! Aww.. but I'm going out in about 30 mins. Still, you can come over to my place if you want... Minna: but ur going out really soon. umm... Miss Tay: Aiya but next week I'll be really busy with my operation. (Minna was puzzled.) Doctors found a growth in me. A small one. So small that it must have been overlooked by doctors. Thank God it was discovered very early. Hope that there's just one of it and not anymore. Guess we just have to trust that God is in control.... Minna: Is it cancerous? Miss Tay: (Reluctantly) Yes.. (sounding more scared now) hopefully it hasn't spread. Got to have it removed early That's why got to trust God. Pray for me ok? I smsed both my bros to ask them to pray together after my conversation with Miss Tay. The older of the younger bro replied and we're gona visit Miss Tay after her op next week. His 1st remark was 'Huh? Why so sudden?' Well. Indeed. Things can happen just this suddenly. My ride home was accompanied by a feeling of death, fear and loneliness I've never felt before. I felt the remorse and fear that I will wake up each morning learning that another person who is related to me has gone before I have loved or spent time with him / her enough. When we were kids and teenagers, all we see is friends having birthday parties and family vacations. Now as young adults, we witness friend's marriages as well as friend's divorce illness and death of relatives, friends...  Is this what growing up is like? If so then I really wish to stop growing right here.... |